When all I could do was PRAY!

     I hinted a few blogs back about a difficult time I had with my kiddos and have finally mustard up the courage to write about it. When our kiddos show signs of turning their back on the Lord and walking away, we as parents, feel helpless and lonely. The good news is this is when our relationship grows by leaps and bounds in Jesus because all we can do is pray!


     A few years back, my son was close to turning his back and walking straight into secular life and I panicked. My son was becoming the thing I dreaded most, a prodigal son.  He was at the age where he needed a godly man example in his life and I could not be that example. I remember the day I prayed to Lord through tears and cried out," Lord, I have no power here and trust You to bring him back into the fold."


      I started journaling daily my prayers and opened my heart up in words. What I found out through my written prayers floored me. I was repeating my prayers and he was NOT covered completely. I made a prayer calender of 30 days of prayer when my kiddos where toddlers and I thought it covered them, but it wasn't specific enough for his life in that moment. When I realized this, my prayers changed and I started to see specific prayers being written and then answered by the Lord. This was great encouragement to me. Through this, I started writing prayer cards for my kiddos and putting dates in my journal when God answered those specific prayers.


    The prayer cards were written on colored index cards and I had a case for each of my children. I would keep index cards in my purse and write them whenever I had time; at lunch during work, during church, waiting for the doctor and so on. I left them out where my children could read them because I wanted them to know how much I loved them and how I prayed for them.


     I wrote a specific prayer in my journal for protection of my son and showed it to him. I knew God lead me in the prayer and prayed without ceasing for a weekend the thing was suppose to happen and it did happen. My son came home and knew God had spoke to me and made a 180* turn and returned to Jesus!! I credit Jesus first leading me to journal my prayers to show me where I was deficient in my prayers for my son.


    God did provide godly men for my son as he started volunteer at church that very week, I will write about that another time. I learned a great lesson through journaling and still write in one occasionally. If I move to Heaven before my kiddos do, I want them to feel my presence and remember me through my written words in my journals and prayer cards.


     If you have a child that is hard to get under control and all you can do is pray, then I would start a journal to just see the words of your prayers and ask God to guide you while writing. You will be blessed!!

Pro 23:15

My son, if your heart is wise, My heart will rejoice--indeed, I myself;

My Prayer Cards I Wrote for my Kiddos